Hey everyone. I just wanted to thank anyone who did pray for my son. He is doing much better mentally and is on the right path to changing his lifestyle to improve his mental and physical health. He still has a long way to go but we are both hopeful that he will handle his depression more positively.

Somehow, I managed to finish the first draft of my book. But I must be honest, I don’t like it and it needs a lot of work. It needs so many changes that I’m not sure if I even want to publish it. It’s not my best work and because 2022 and the beginning of 2023 have been so difficult for me and my family that I’m afraid that my ability to write has taken a hard beating.

My productivity is good but my creativity is lacking as well as my imagination. Lately, I have been considering giving up publishing my work because even though I love writing, I don’t want to sell you garbage lol. I have always written for myself in the past but when I started publishing it stopped being fun, and started feeling like a lot of work. There are so many rules to follow and so much pressure to make the story good because if it’s not, people will address it in the reviews and they hold back nothing. A lot of time and money goes into creating a novel for publication and having to market it yourself.

Being an Author is getting more difficult now and I’ve had one trauma after another which is affecting my creativity. I have not yet learned how to separate myself from my problems to put out a good story. In the coming weeks, I will be trying to make some changes to this book to see if it can be salvaged. This was going to be my last novel for a while.  I haven’t had a break since before I published my first novel. I guess I didn’t want to take one because, through the rough times in my life, writing has become very therapeutic for me and helps me to get my mind off of my troubles. Which is probably why I will never really give it up completely. I just may not always share it with the rest of the world.

If I feel that my new novel can’t be saved and is a lost cause, I will announce it here on my blog. It’s funny, I already have an idea for my next book written down but I haven’t decided what I will do with it. The future of my bringing more books to the public is up in the air right now but I will keep you posted on what I decide to do. I will be doing a lot of soul-searching and hopefully, I will make the right decision.

Until next time…