Happy Mother’s Day Everyone. I can’t tell you how hard it’s been writing my very first book series. But I haven’t given up yet. The first few weeks of this was going pretty well, but when I realized that I couldn’t finish creating the outline for the first book in the series, that should have tipped me off that this was going to be harder than I ever thought possible. And like an idiot, I started the novel anyway.

I tried to develop each main character, but I never went back to look at those character profiles after I created them on Evernote. Another tip-off. I also found myself not writing to my full potential due to a lack of sleep. My imagination has been deeply compromised by the events of the past year. A bad break up, a death in the family, a sick mother, recent big changes at my job creating a future of uncertainty and a lot of pressure has taken a toll on me physically and increased my insomnia, my anxiety, my depression and even managed to shake my faith a little bit. What can I say, it’s been rough?

But one night as I was lying in bed trying to fall asleep, (My nightly cliché), I began to ask myself how I can make this story better? Oh no, I wasn’t going to give up. Especially after writing seven chapters already. It was going to be called The Broken Halo series, but that title is officially dead now after receiving a flood gate of new ideas that helped me to expand the story and expand the entire world. Even my main characters have changed. So basically, I had to throw away everything that I had already written and start over from scratch. I know, I’m still crying. But it’s every writer’s nightmare of having to start over. It happens. But something tells me that one day in the future, I will be glad that I did all of this.

I won’t even tell you what the title is going to be this time, because titles at the starting point of a new novel tend to change. I also had to change the POV (Point of View). I chose to go with a Deep POV. For those of you who don’t know what that is, it’s a deeper level of the third person. I find that it better suits my needs in the way that I want this story told. I find regular third person cold and impersonal. I prefer a more intimate approach because I like getting into my main character’s head a lot. I like knowing what makes people tick. That’s just me.

I hope it will become something that you will enjoy reading when this is finally done. It may take longer to write this one because the story is much bigger than anything I’ve ever come up with. It’s also forced me to be brutally honest in certain subject matters that may have people talking. But the discussion is good, and a little controversy couldn’t hurt.

I’ll keep you posted on how it’s coming along.

Until next time. Enjoy the holiday.