My Biggest Regret

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Regrets…everyone has them including me. I think that my biggest regret is not trusting my instincts and pursuing a writing career right after I graduated college. I kept listening to all of the wrong people telling me there’s too much competition. I was going to study journalism. I wanted to write for newspapers and magazines. I also had the dream of starting my own magazine someday. I took a few journalism classes in college but not enough to really get a job in it. I wound up studying Advertising and learning how to become a copywriter instead. My BA is in Marketing Communications/Journalism. But after I graduated I hit a bit of a snag. Like so many other college kids out there, I couldn’t land a job in what I studied because I didn’t have any connections and I didn’t have any experience. I tried for a couple of years until I just gave up and took whatever type of job I could get. I was married and had a toddler to care for. Money was an object and waiting for my dream to take off was no longer an option. I had jobs as a cashier and as a security officer for a lot of years. Jobs I could’ve gotten without a college degree. Right now I am at a crossroads and in the process of trying to reinvent myself. After years of just surviving, I have decided that I want to actually live. Before I get too old to enjoy life, which is much too short. Especially in these dangerous times. I’ve put my writing on the back burner in order to handle my other responsibilities. Sometimes you just have to but even when there were times when I had no time to write…i still made time. I just couldn’t give it up. I know I’m not the best writer in the world but I’m growing and still learning and I strongly believe that I was born to do this. I don’t regret writing and never will but I don’t believe in quitting your day job just to pursue your dream whatever that dream may be. Life is just too damn expensive and you know I’m right. I’m not rich and probably never will be. But that’s OK because as long as I am continuing my writing, that makes me happy. Only two things in life make me truly happy in this world. My son and writing. Even when I get old and gray I will still be able to write. Which is great. My only regret is not believing in myself enough to do what I wanted to do. For those of you who struggle with a lack of confidence when it comes to anything. Please don’t let it stunt your growth and hold you back. I’m older now and just last year I was thinking about giving up writing because I thought getting published was never going to happen but thanks to companies like createspace who make it possible to make people’s dreams of getting published a reality, I was able to finally get a book that I wrote a long time ago published. Luckily after writing “A Woman Of Courage” I continued learning how to write and polishing my skill. I may have gotten older but I also got better. I still try to learn everything I can to be a better writer because I feel that you can never stop learning. It will only benefit you in the long run. Until next time and keep writing…